I'm just playing in the sand...

Hi friends! It's been a while since the last time I posted on here. Seems like it was just the beginning of summer and now I'm a day away from heading back to Santa Clara for my Senior year. It's unreal how quickly time flies. I can still remember running back to the parking lot my freshmen year to catch my parents before they left so I could go back with them. I asked my dad to tell me it was okay to come back home instead of doing this college thing. He told me I could come home, but he knew I'd regret it. If I would have came home that day, I definitely would have regretted it.

I have so much to look forward to this year. I'm going to be living off campus finally! I'll be sharing a room with one of my best friends. I wouldn't have been able to survive the past three years without her, especially this last one. I'll be living with four other amazing girls too (who just snap chatted me a picture of them finished setting up my bed)! I'll have the honor of being a leader on Search. I'll get to lead one more CLC formation retreat. I have lots of fun classes lined up for me this year- non-fiction writing, organizational management, environmental economics, tap and screenwriting. I'll be HDR in Nobili with an awesome staff. And this is only what I can think of for fall quarter. I feel so blessed for the the generosity of the One who has always been there for me. Leaving footprints in the sand and constantly carrying me.

Footprints...

There's been lots of those in my life, especially in the past 9 months. He carries me as I try to understand why she had to go so soon. As I struggle to figure out the mixed signals my mind sends to my heart giving it false hopes of her return. As I think about how she won't be there when I graduate and get my diploma. That was something we always talked about since I started school. She couldn't wait until I graduated. She didn't like being apart. We were only two hours away. Now the distance is a lot harder to bear. I never imagined her not being there...

But He carries me. He carries me until I'm ready to be set down. Sometimes I ask Him politely to set me down. And He does. He carries me far enough and lets me enjoy the sand too. I know it won't be long until I'll be building sandcastles with her and all my loved one in paradise. But until then, there's beaches on earth too and I can't wait to play in the sand this year. Always remembering the woman who makes me want to be better every day. I love you grandma.

<3

Also Happy 23rd Birthday to Warren Wesley Warner III!!
Love and miss you buddy.