Well hey there stranger...

I love my friends, but then again who doesn't? After all isn't that what separates them from being strangers? However, I'd say that's not entirely true because how much of anyone do we really know for sure. There's always something we don't know.

There's always someone who hides their pain by smiling all the time, who seems to never be sad or have a bad day. They seem to have it together, but maybe that's because they would rather listen to what others are going through than to share their own story. Some might say that listening to what others are dealing with might help them feel better about their own life, but maybe it's because they would rather help out others before themselves. That could be because they are genuinely nice people or maybe it's just easier than finding out that their own advice only works for others.

There's always someone who is negative all the time, who complains about the weather even when it's beautiful outside. Some might call them bitter, but maybe they are just looking for something to make their life great. That could be because even though they are surrounded by a lot of people they feel alone, or maybe it's easier to be known as a debbie downer than for what goes on behind closed doors.

Whether someone wears their sorrows on their sleeve or hides them in the darkest corner of their room, it doesn't make them all that different from each other. We all go through things. Therefore, if you know the person who always has it together, don't be so quick to assume they have a perfect life and if you know the person who always has something to complain about, don't give up on them. You might just find yourself in their place one day and that you have more in common with them than you ever thought. So this post is to the strangers in our lives. After all they are just friends waiting to happen and there's always something you don't know.


Picture Citations: Place Hands Here. http://drcmd.wordpress.com/2010/12/17/place-your-hand-here/

Late Night...

Every so often I find myself having one of those nights; where you lay wide awake with so many thoughts that you don't even know where to begin. For me, it usually happens after a day of many obersvations, which require careful analyzation on my part and the best time to do that is right before I go to bed. Tonight, however, is different from those other ones. There's nothing left to analyze. Nothing I want to anyway.

http://youtu.be/8v_4O44sfjM

It hit me. And I'm almost afraid I'm too late. Scared I've wasted time. Sad I'm wasting more feeling bad about what I am just realizing now. It wasn't him that I was in "love" with. It was the "happy ending" I was looking forward to the most. If we ended up together, it would be just like all the love stories and movies. That's what I've always wanted. What girl doesn't want that really? I wanted that plotline to be real for me and that's why I was stubborn to let go. There were plenty of reasons for me to move on, but I was determined to find one that would give me approval for sticking around.

They say follow your heart, but that sucks. Every time I was ready to stop holding on, he would do something that would make me change my mind, only he wasn't promising me anything more than what we already had. I hate that I did that. I always saw what I wanted to see.

But it is now clearer than it ever was to me before. I know I deserve better. I deserve someone who makes me feel good about myself instead of having me wonder what she has that I don't. I deserve someone who makes me laugh after a long day or just because he can. Someone whom I can be a better version of myself with. I deserve someone who simply wants me back. I know that who I am might be too much for most guys to handle, but I'm determined to find the one who is not phased by the depth of a person such as myself.

I wasn't sure if I would publish this post on the blog because it would be showing a vulnerable side of me I wasn't ready for people to see, but I needed to do an "it is all said and done, it is what is" kind of thing because up until now I haven't gotten the necessary closure to finally move on. I also know I'm not the only one who has had their heart broken. So this post is to letting go, knowing what you are worth, not settling for anything less than you deserve, but most importantly to whom these closed doors will eventually lead us to.

(I want to thank those who let me vent to them about this situation, especially those who never told me to just get over it or judged me because of it.)


Picture Citations: I do not own the rights to the picture in this post. I got it from google.

All it takes is fear...

We are all afraid. Whether it’s as simple as crossing the street or going outside in the dark, we all have something that terrifies us. It can also go beyond being afraid of sharks or bugs. Some of us are mortified of the truth. Others, of not finding any answers. Some fear change and others, that things will always be the same. Losing loved ones and failure, are also fears many can relate to. I know I certainly can.

Fear has always been my biggest enemy and something tells me it hasn’t just been mine. The thing about fear is that if you are not careful, it soon begins to define who you are, causing you to lose hope and constantly having you look back at the past. It holds you back. Confuses you. Wants you to believe that you are not good enough and that giving up is what you need to do next.

We’ve all heard poems and speeches about fear. They encourage us not to give up. And in that moment, when the poem is being read out loud, we feel a positive energy running through us. We say to ourselves that today is the day when it will all be different. We are flying high and nothing can stop us. But more often than not, that feeling is only temporary.

Fear. It’s always going to be around. Some days it will get the best of us, but the days when it doesn’t, let’s not take them for granted because the past is a good friend of fear and that’s one more foe we don’t want to deal with. It will only make us waste time and prevent us from appreciating what lies before us. So this post is to letting fear do its thing, but YOU also doing your own. Food for thought, without fear, there would be no courage, nothing to stand up for, no heroes, etc. etc....

(In memory of Warren Wesley Warner III).




Picture Citations: Scared Eggs. http://www.dailyhaha.com/_pics/eggs_are_scared.htm