There's something about this picture that gets me every time I come across it. Perhaps, it's because I no longer have one of those beautiful women in my life and these are the things that help me hold on to her. I look at her face as she puts frosting on my mother and all I can think about is how much I miss that look. That look full of love. A love that had the ability to make you feel safe in a world that is so broken. A love that made you feel special. This picture says so much about the kind of person my grandmother was - so innocent, so gentle, so loving. This picture brings back so many memories of her. In this picture she was the birthday girl. Oh how she loved being the birthday girl. She had many good birthday celebrations, but I'll never forget this one, the one she had at Chuck E. Cheese, and her 87th one.
As I looked at this picture a different time, I realized it warms my heart because it captures something so special. A mother-daughter relationship. And I can easily connect to this picture because I have a similar relationship myself. When I think of the one person who would LITERALLY do anything for me, it is my mother. And my grandmother was the same way. I don't even know what to say. I'm simply amazed at these women's ability to love. To love without expectations. To love so openly and make a difference because their love is so real and big.
As I reflect on the 4th month of my grandmother passing away I want to focus on the good things in my life I owe to her. She gave me a woman so strong and full of faith to take care of me. She raised a woman so willing to put others needs before her own even if it means 2 hours of sleep and little to eat. She brought into this world a woman so beautiful, not only on the outside, but on the inside too. With a personality so genuine and inspiring.
She gave me my mother.
I hope to have many years with my mother like she did with hers.
Next month is mother's day. It's going to be a tough day. The "firsts" with out her have not been easy, but somehow my grandma has figured out a way to remind us that no matter where she has gone, she is still with us.
Gracias Abuelita. Que descanses en pas.
Go thank the women who have made a difference in your life. <3
